All the Time in the World

Tuesday, February 20th 2018


7:19 AM

This will be my first journal entry that I upload online to JustMegawatt.com, a website I started nearly 10 years ago when I was 15 years old, as a freshman in high school on February 15th 2009. For around 5 the years that I worked on it, JustMegawatt.com went from 0 visitors a day, to 200 visitors a day, to 2000, to at its peak, over 100,000 visitors a day.

I think the most in one day was over 200,000, but I don't remember the exact numbers and I no longer have access to those old visitor logs. JustMegawatt.com used to be one of the top 100,000 websites on the Internet according to worldwide traffic.

Sometime in 2015, I stopped maintaining and updating this website. I changed webhosts at one point and wanted to delete all the website files and start again from scratch. I ended up deleting all the website files (they're still archived somewhere), but since recreating the site would take more effort, I didn't bother starting the website from scratch again.

JustMegawatt.com became an empty domain. It became just a blank white page and its visitor count dropped to zero, and it was like that for around 3 years until today when I decided to update it again by turning it into my personal journaling and portfolio website. Website traffic competition is a lot tougher these days than it was in 2009, so I'm not sure if I'll be able to get that placement back again, but I sure will try.

For my daily journal entries, it's currently Day 485, that's how many days so far I've been writing this series of daily journal entries. My first series I actually started back in 10th grade during my last few days of being a 15 year old, and I kept it up for a few years until I was a bit over 19 years old. I'm not sure why I ever stopped, but I kept all my writing in a single word document that spanned well over 1000 pages (I think it was single spaced but I don't remember for sure). Actually I just checked, and that old journal was split into two files, and in total spanned 948 pages with a mix of both double and single spacing (it was mainly double spaced).

Then just around a year and a half ago (485 days to be exact) I decided to start a daily journal again, and wrote one daily ever since (although I admit I would skip some days and I would end up going back and writing them). This is the first journal entry I'm uploading to JustMegawatt.com, because the time felt appropriate.


8:13 AM

All the time in the world. That's what I have right now. I'm unemployed and don't have a thing to do. I'm a blank slate, I don't know anything, almost literally. I don't have any skills and haven't accomplished or created anything during the past couple of years. Formerly I was a jack of all trades, I knew a little bit about everything; I did web page development both front and back end, I created apps and games, I recorded and edited videos, I wrote articles and stories, pretty much whatever.

Nowadays my skill in these fields are so general they're basically useless in today's society, and I've mainly forgotten everything. This is what happens when you don't use your skills for several years. I barely remember anything about web page development, I no longer know how to make any apps or games and don't remember how (although my apps are still available online in the iOS store), I can still record and edit videos but that's something you never forget, and I can still write articles and stories because I've worked on my writing daily with these journal entries.

I'm 24. I don't know how to draw, I don't remember any math, I don't remember how to program. I've never been in a relationship. I don't have a degree. I have no skills or abilities that will help me in this modern society. I'm also overweight. I'm pretty much broke. I have shitty eyesight. Two of my relatives just died this month, one just less than a week ago and just three days after I last saw him. I have zero visitors to this site.

I'm starting from nothing and with nothing. There's no better way to start a story.


8:33 AM

I do have a plan however, and it's this really powerful advantage. I have all the free time in the world. I have no duties or responsibilities, I just have time and I can choose to do anything I want with it. Unfortunately one of my weaknesses and the reason why the old JustMegawatt.com stopped getting updated, the reason why I stopped my first series of journal entries for several years, the reason why I forgot everything including all my skills, and the reason why I basically haven't done shit with my life; is that I procrastinate and I lose interest.

You know what I did the past few days? Nothing. I stayed at home, watched anime, ate food, slept. Wasted my time. I was actually in the Philippines for the past 2 weeks for my grandmother's wake ceremony and funeral, and 4 days ago was my first day back in the States. During the 25+ hours of plane flight home, I imagined myself becoming an extremely productive and hardworking person, reading and studying, and accomplishing so much for the opportunity to live in this first world country. Instead, I did nothing the past 4 days.

The time just went by and I wasted every second. I actually lie down on the floor to use my computer, so literally for the past 4 days I just lied on the floor in front of a screen, watching anime. I wish I were joking. I can never retrieve those 4 days back. I didn't read or study or do anything at all worthwhile. That's how much I procrastinate and that's how skilled I am at it. I used to have a job before my unemployment, and I worked really hard, I wasn't lazy at all, because it was my responsibility to get the work done.

At home though, being the leader of my life, there's no pressure for me to do anything, so I don't do anything. What's the point? Just kidding. Of course now that I've started this journal entry and uploaded it online, I'm forced to do something. This is the journal entry of the adventures of someone who has all the time in the world to do anything. I want to take advantage of this time.

My sleep schedule is a bit messed up so I might take a nap and/or go to sleep right now. Afterwards I'll go read a productivity book to help me get on track.


9:03 PM

It's 9:03 PM now, I woke up at around 7 PM, I fell asleep for nearly 12 hours. The past two hours I've been wasting my time.


9:15 PM

I'm having dinner now, it's beans and rice with some flaxseed, and a vegan patty for flavoring. Without the patty my meal would be around 25 cents, if I was just having beans and rice. With the patty, it's more like 80 cents. Yeah the patty is expensive and unnecessary, but my dad buys it for himself and he eats it, but I'm having some because it's extra flavor.

I'm going to watch Scott H Young's TedX talk about getting an MIT education for $2000, then read his book after I eat.


9:40 PM

I'm going to be keeping a timelog now. From the video, I learned that it helps improves productivity by a lot.


10:06 PM

Yeah. This is why I need a timelog. I just spent the past 26 minutes watching YouTube videos. I'll put the timelog at the bottom of this journal entry. I'll do it in this format:

Start Time - Activity - End Time

And there we go, I added the current time, and once I finish this activity, I'll end the time, and write down the next time and what I'm doing next. Okay so I want to learn how to draw, I want to relearn math, and I want to relearn how to manage websites and recreate them. I also want to lose weight. I'm going to take pictures of myself tonight and upload them online here, they'll just be what I look like from today's starting point.

For drawing, I'm going to be reading this book called "Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain" which I'm not sure where it is. I'm going to go looking for it.


10:16 PM

Okay I'm back. I was able to find the book and a bunch of drawing material I have, some erasers, and colored pencils, and my drawing notebook. So that's there, organized into one neat pile. There's my drawing out of the way and ready when I want to.

Now I also have web development work to do, and it's been over 36 hours since I last replied, so I'm going to get back to my client now.


10:37 PM

I took a break for way too long. I basically talked to my dad for a while, did some web browsing, watched some YouTube videos, and just overall dawdled.


11:59 PM

I took photos of my face and my body. I also put up some new pictures onto Instagram. I'm going to be putting up my daily photos on Instagram again, and this website too, just so I can keep track of myself, how I look, etc.

Time Log

10:07 PM – Writing Journal – 10:10 PM

10:10 PM – Looking for the Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain book – 10:12 PM

10:12 PM – Looking for drawing materials – 10:16 PM

10:16 PM – Writing Journal – 10:18 PM

10:18 PM – Web Development Work for Client – 11:00 PM

11:00 PM – Break – 11:37 PM

11:37 PM – Writing Journal – 11:37 PM

11:37 PM – Wasting Time – 11:41 PM

11:41 PM – Taking Photos – 11:59 PM

11:59 PM – Writing Journal – 11:59 PM

Wednesday, February 21st 2018


12:13 AM

I was wasting time again. Time to upload my photos online.


12:33 AM

It didn't actually take me 20 minutes to just write a description and upload the photos. I admit I did some unnecessary web browsing during that time period too. I've been awake for a few hours now and so far haven't done anything yet. I'm going to go out for a walk tonight to get my daily exercise in. Just a small amount of walking.

First I need to change my clothes and get other things I need.


2:41 AM

It took me nearly 30 minutes to remove a callus from my foot? Geez that time is over an episode of any anime. Anyway, I'm hungry so I'm going to prepare some food and eat.


3:14 AM

I really just played GTA V for maybe a minute or two, because the loading times for the game took forever, before quitting. I didn't even do anything, I just spawned in the game, I walked around, didn't even get into my car, and then I quit. I uninstalled the game. I realized that this would be a waste of time and I wouldn't get anything from it, so I quit.


3:23 AM

Hmm, yeah, I didn't like the book. I wasn't getting anything from it so I stopped reading. I'm now going to work on JustMegawatt.com and uploading my first journal entry online. It's going to be a portfolio but I want to just upload a simple web page to begin with. It will literally be a blank white page with just text on it, and then possibly pictures at the bottom. I'm going to have to come up with a way to better format it later on.


8:43 AM

Wait it's 8:43 AM already?! Yeah I spent the past five hours doing absolutely nothing. I didn't get anything done. Nothing. I downloaded VS Code and was installing it, then it said I didn't have GIT installed, so I went and installed that. Then I just browsed the Internet for several hours, reading, looking at memes, watching videos. The time can really go by quickly, and this time log helps me keep track of it all.


8:48 AM

In order to cook beans you first have to soak them for 8 hours in water, then empty out the water to get rid of the contaminants, and then you can cook the beans. They don't actually take 4 minutes to soak, but I got distracted, I also used the bathroom, talked to my dad for a while, accidentally used the Internet again for a while, before remembering I had to do other things.

Yeah, I still have to upload my first journal entry onto the website. First I have to set up VS Code though.


11:11 AM

Nice, it works! It converts a regular word document like this journal entry, into a workable html page. I just have to make sure the Time Log is displayed properly too at the end.


11:19 AM

Nice! It outputs a very workable HTML page that just has the entire journal entry just like how it is in my word document. You can pretty much just upload this HTML document online and it would work properly. I think I'll do that now actually. Let me ponder it for a second to see if it's ready.

Yeah, it looks ready. I'm going to just upload this file as the index.html for JustMegawatt.com for now and will update it with pictures later.


11:59 AM

Done! I'm proud. It looks nice. It's literally just a blank text document on the website. That's it. Just this blank HTML document with nothing on it except for this bland little journal entry. It's literally a white page with a bunch of text on it. There's no styling or anything, but it still looks nice.

I'm going to work on adding the template design and other things to it in time. For now, this is good. Photos and images need to be added too. Also my script is pretty much shit in the way it's organized. It's been a while (possibly longer than a year, I can't even recall the last thing I worked on) since I last programmed anything and it took a while to getting used to again today, but I had fun getting into it again.


1:14 PM

Well I tried to go to sleep but couldn't. I had too many questions in my mind that I had to look up online, not to mention that my windows are open and it's a bright and sunny day outside and the light is pouring into my room. But mainly I kept thinking about death again and how it was eternal, death is a recurring theme in my journals and something I write about often.

I'm afraid to die because I can't control when I die. It would be so much easier if I could just press a button – here, I'm ready to die today, I've said my goodbyes, I've done all I wanted to do, so now I want to just die – and choose to die whenever. Unfortunately it's not that easy. We have no idea when we'll die, and we don't know how much pain we'll go through. Most people today die in the hospital, usually in pain, usually from sickness that can't be cured.

Why can't they just be given the option to die if they wanted to? I looked it up and you can't even choose when to die yourself. You have to die slowly and painfully, and you have to pay the medical bills for them keeping you barely alive in the hospital. That's immoral. I want to be given the option to die when I want, on my own terms, at anytime, even today, even right now. I don't want to live to an old age just to be sick, unable to do anything, and just be barely alive for no reason. That's suffering.

It would be even more painful for me to realize that my family and loved ones would be left with a large bill to pay, and they have to pay for a funeral to conduct. Then they would be completely unprepared for it all. They don't know that, oh hey, this is this person's last moments alive, we better get ready and say our last words and everything, possibly bring them home or wheel them around to where they want to go. No. You stay in the hospital, barely alive, paying the bills, then you die.

I think that should be something we all vote for. The option to die whenever we want. Why do we want to prevent suicide? Why is there even such thing as suicide prevention? What the fuck? Reading differing opinions online, people say it's legally to allow cops to stop a suicide from happening, and it's also possibly because the church deemed it as a sin to commit suicide and therefore it was historically outlawed.

Man. There's no point in life at all. Zero. Your existence, my existence, it doesn't matter. We all die someday and nothing matters. It's a terrible "modern" society that we live in today where you can't even choose to end your life at any moment if you wanted to. I mean seriously, what's the point of getting old, only to just die later...? What's the point of getting older, each second literally a second closer to your death?

I'm not going to be this age forever, not even close. I'll be 24 for a very finite amount of time, just a year in total in fact, and I've already gone through around half of my year already. How must it feel to be 40+ right now? At 40+ to know that you're most likely over the halfway point of your life. At 24 I'm already thinking about death, and how inevitable it is. Every day is literally just one day closer to dying. I can prolong my life by being healthy and doing health building activities, but there's nothing I can do about the inevitability of my life ending at some point.

So, why are we imprisoned in this life? If we all know that we're all going to die at some point in time, and once that happens, it's as if nothing we did ever mattered, why aren't we just given the option to end it at any moment? I would love that option. I wouldn't say I'm suicidal, I don't want to kill myself right now, but for the future, I might just want to have that option.

Oh yeah, death is a scary place. I've gone through nearly an entire course on death, on how different religions and cultures view death, I have several books on death, I've read through first hand experiences on death happening right in front of them, I've had first hand experience of death of some of my pets myself, and so on. I'm deeply fascinated and mesmerized by death. It's something I think about often, something I've done a lot of reading and study on, it's something I know a good amount of, a lot more than most people, which is ridiculous because it's something that happens to all of us.

What most people think is "Ah, my religion told me this is what happens when you die" and so that's all they believe. It's as if to them, no other religion exists in the world, and that theirs is the only one. Today there's five main "big" religions, but there's still hundreds of tiny follower religions that exist today, and tens of thousands that existed throughout human history. From studying different cultures and religions, literally every religion has a different story and interpretation on what happens in death.

What really annoys me the most is the humancentrism of some religions, so now not only do a lot of people think that only their religion exists (or they do understand that other religions exist, but somehow are deluded into thinking theirs is right and everyone else's is wrong, not to mention the existence of "dead" religions that used to have tens of millions of followers like the Ancient Greek and Roman religion or Aztec religions, and these guys also thought their religion was right), but now only humans are the only living creatures. Because in some of these religions, oh if you die then you either go to heaven or hell, but if this animal dies then nothing happens to them. Why? Well because God says so.

Wait wait wait, so humans are made of mud and dirt, and we all come from Adam and Eve who talked to a snake and the reason why death and all bad things exists is because Eve took a bite from an apple, the reason why different languages exist is because they made a tower so big that it angered god who then blew up that tower and split everyone up into different languages, and there's so many other stories that are so ridiculous they're funny, and people actually believe this stuff.

It's like the skeptical lightbulb is turned off in some people's heads, because people literally dedicate their entire lives to a work of fiction, literally entire schools with thousands of people enrolled dedicate their entire teachings to these stories. Literally people give away millions of dollars for free to their religion for no reason other than to keep the religion going, despite religions having a history of executing people who made scientific discoveries that contradicted its teachings. I wish I were joking.

Anyway, my main annoyance with some religions is that they're humancentric, as if no other animals or creatures are alive in this world. It's ridiculous. Oh, yeah, we go to heaven or hell, but animals, hmm. They don't have souls. Yeah. We have souls because we're special, but apes, elephants, hmmm.... Nope. Just humans... Oh yeah, me saying only humans have souls has nothing to do with me being a human and me preferring my own species over any other. If another alien race far superior to humans in every way shows up, ooh, they don't have souls, and they weren't made in God's image, like humans were, soooo they won't be in hell or heaven either, nope. Just humans.

Fuck religion.


8:28 PM

I just woke up. I have homework due tonight at 11:55 PM. I'm going to work on that now.


11:38 PM

Well I did the easy homework that I had due tonight, but there was the reading assignment and programming assignment due that I didn't work on. I actually could have done the programming assignment if I worked on it since 8 PM when I woke up, but I started on it late, literally at 11:34 PM, around 21 minutes before it would be due, and during the few minutes I worked on all I did was read what we had to do. It was this long page describing what was required, and so I concluded there was no point in trying to finish it.

I just submitted my assignment saying I ran into errors which made me unable to complete the assignment, which was true, but I was able to fix the errors. So I posted that I fixed the errors but there wasn't enough time left to complete the assignment but would submit it anyway (sometimes people give you a good grade for literally nothing. I'm not joking. You're graded by your peers, and I've gotten a perfect score once from submitting an almost blank homework assignment).

Anyway, there's nothing I can do about that homework assignment now except not procrastinate in the future.

I guess I should upload my photos for today next.


11:57 PM

Well that's the end of my day today. I'm going to now just spend the beginning of tomorrow studying and reviewing what I did today and see where I did well, and where I can improve. Some of the time log stuff are wrong, like I would be distracted pretty often and open up new tabs in my browser, while claiming I was only "doing homework" or something else. I need to fix that. When I say I'm doing something for a certain time period, that's the only thing I need to be doing.

Time Log

12:00 AM – Wasting Time – 12:13 AM

12:13 AM – Uploading Photos to Instagram – 12:33 AM

12:33 AM – Writing Journal – 12:34 AM

12:34 AM – Preparing to Walk Outside – 12:40 AM

12:40 AM – Walking Outside – 2:03 AM

2:03 AM – Wasting Time 2:14 AM

2:14 AM – Removing Callus – 2:40 AM

2:41 AM – Writing Journal - 2:42 AM

2:42 AM – Preparing Food – 2:49 AM

2:49 AM – Eating Food – 3:05 AM

3:05 AM – GTA V – 3:14 AM

3:14 AM – Writing Journal – 3:16 AM

3:16 AM – Reading book on productivity – 3:23 AM

3:23 AM – Writing Journal – 3:25 AM

3:25 – Wasting Time 3:34 AM

3:34 AM – Working on JustMegawatt.com – 3-36 AM

3:36 AM – Wasting Time – 8:43 AM

8:43 AM – Writing Journal – 8:44 AM

8:44 AM – Preparing Beans – 8:48 AM

8:48 AM – Writing Journal – 8:51 AM

8:51 AM – Set up VS Code and GIT – 8:54 AM

8:54 AM – Update JustMegawatt.com to have yesterday's journal entry and photos – 9:04 AM

9:04 AM – Write a script that converts word document to HTML – 9:14 AM

9:14 AM – Wasting Time – 10:42 AM

10:42 AM – Write a script that converts word document to HTML – 11:11 AM

11:11 AM – Writing Journal – 11:12 AM

11:12 AM – Make the time log display properly – 11:19 AM

11:19 AM – Writing Journal – 11:21 AM

11:21 AM – Uploading first journal entry to JustMegawatt.com – 11:35 AM

11:35 AM – Fix script to change all special characters to HTML entities – 11:58 AM

11:58 AM – Upload first journal entry to JustMegawatt.com – 11:58 AM

11:59 AM – Writing Journal – 12:02 AM

12:02 PM – Brushing Teeth – 12:06 PM

12:06 PM – Bathroom – 12:19 PM

12:19 PM – Wasting Time – 12:44 PM

12:44 PM – Attempting to Sleep – 1:14 PM

1:14 PM – Writing Journal – 2:15 PM

2:15 PM – Reading Online – 3:39 PM

3:39 PM – Sleep – 8:27 PM

8:28 PM – Write Journal – 8:28 PM

8:28 PM – Waste Time – 8:30 PM

8:30 PM – Homework - 8:31 PM

8:31 PM – Close Blinds – 8:32 PM

8:32 PM – Homework – 8:33 PM

8:33 – Wasting Time – 8:56 PM

8:56 PM – Prepare Food – 8:59 PM

8:59 PM – Wasting Time – 9:01 PM

9:01 PM – Homework – 9:28 PM

9:29 PM – Check Food – 9:35 PM

9:35 PM – Break – 9:46 PM

9:46 PM – Eat Food – 10:10 PM

10:10 PM – Break – 11:18 PM

11:18 PM – Bathroom – 11:23 PM

11:23 PM – Homework – 11:28 PM

11:28 PM – Taking Pictures – 11:34 PM

11:34 PM – Homework – 11:38 PM

11:38 PM – Wasting Time – 11:42 PM

11:42 PM – Writing Journal – 11:51 PM

11:51 PM – Uploading Photos – 11:57 PM

11:57 PM – Writing Journal – 11:59 PM

Thursday, February 22nd 2018


12:21 AM

Well I uploaded yesterday's journal entry to the website and it looks very crowded now. I just appended yesterday's entry to the previous day's entry, so that they're in chronological scrolling order, you see the earliest date first, and then as you scroll down it reads sort of like a story. I used a horizontal rule to separate the two journal entries, it really looks like a 1990s site haha. It's literally just all text right now. It looks so plain and lame.

I think it might look better with the journal entry on the left side, and the time log on the right side. That's how I write these journal entries anyway, that's what I see on my screen right now. On the left side is where I'm typing up this text right now, and on the right side, I can see what I did all day today so far.


12:29 AM

America is 5th place in the Winter Olympics right now in amount of gold medals. Russia from I think a doping scandal incident, disallowed any athletes from officially representing Russia, so literally the contestants from Russia are just called "Olympic Athlete from Russia", and they're currently in 7th place. In the top 10 list there's a list of countries and flags, except for 7th place which has the text "Olympic Athlete From Russia" and instead of a flag is just the Olympics logo. It's funny.

At the same time though I'm disappointed in the U.S., when did we turn into an amateur country, to be beaten by Canada? Oh nooooo, how could we allow this.... Ah, I thought I was living in the greatest country on the planet. How could Canada do this to us...


10:42 AM

Well I just woke up. I looked at myself in the mirror and I feel like I have lost a ton of weight.


12:24 PM

I just found a bunch of nice online tutorials for web development.


4:02 PM

Yeah I wasted a couple hours of web browsing again but oh well. It was fun browsing, reading around, watching videos, looking at pictures, etc. Though I really should prevent myself from getting distracted.

Hmm. After thinking about it for a while, there were a few situations in which I could think of that were 'ideal' for dying. One is dying while laughing, very few people in history died while laughing, but it's probably one of the nicer ways to die. Another nice way to die is a simultaneous death in the arms of a loved one were both individuals die at the same time, this way neither 'dies alone' and both feel good in death.

Those two ways to die, though ideal, aren't practical. It's nearly impossible to die of laughter unless you were under some sort of tickling machine, and it's nearly impossible to find a loved one who would agree to die with you at the same time. One more ideal but perhaps not a practical way to die would be to die while sleeping, this one is hard to plan, but essentially you go to sleep, and just never wake up again. Yeah it's kinda messed up if you imagine yourself being in that situation of going to sleep only to never wake up again, but it's also nice as you wouldn't even know you died. Well when you're dead you never knew you died in the first place, but at least your last memories while living was just going to sleep.

One of my great uncles actually died on Saturday night I believe, just a few days ago, in his sleep. He went to sleep, and never woke up again. He was under a lot of machinery in the hospital, and that brings us to possibly the most practical yet also ideal way to die today. That is, dying while drugged up high with all the painkillers and other drugs. I've been through that experience before since I've had surgery for a kidney stone before, it felt good.

It was like I was just lying in the hospital bed, feeling numb everywhere, and also feeling a little bit high, like I didn't give a care about anything in the world. No cares in the world. It felt nice. It's sort of how I feel right now, feeling very comfortable and calm, but the drugs just amplified that feeling. Combine the drugs with dying by going to sleep, and you have yourself a very nice and ideal death in modern society. Now only if it were legal to just choose to die like this anytime you wanted. That would be great.

Too bad you can't just die whenever. There's almost no point to life anyway. You just live, and then death.

I'm going to be working on the website next. I'm going to make it so that it's split screened and have the left side work as showing the journal entry, and the right side showing the time log. At first I'm going to do this myself without any CSS frameworks so I can figure out how it works, and then I'll be using Bootstrap most likely just to make the process easier. Bootstrap is already a nice working system, I've created my own framework similar to Bootstrap before, but I don't remember how to do that today and I don't need to recreate the wheel even it would probably take a day just to recreate it, it's still better to just use existing technologies.

Should I take a nap first though? I feel like taking a nap.


5:35 PM

I did it, the journal entries now fit into two columns. I didn't actually just fully work on the website for an hour, I browsed for songs, read up on material, eh I'm not sure how much time exactly I wasted.

But yeah, the website looks okay now. It looked okay, it might be more okay now.

Hmm. Yeah, not bad. I want to change the font, and make the entries look like they're in boxes. I'm going to take a nap and then try again.


6:27 PM

Wow the website looks a lot better now. It's pretty much split into two columns, I put accent colors at the top of each column, and I put each entry into their own 'box'. Instead of just a plain website with literally just text, there's at least some design elements now. It's still pretty lame because it's still basically all text, but it looks a lot better now.

Now I can add images to right under the Time Log. Hmm. Yeah, I'll do that now.


7:05 PM

Okay the photos have been added and they don't look bad at all now. I just added them right underneath the time log, in one row by three columns. There's the food, then the selfie, then the body picture of the day. Not bad. I think it looks good. The images are also clickable but it just opens the image up in full size in a new tab, not like a jquery lightbox or anything.

Also the images take up a lot of space because I have them load on the page not via a thumbnail but the entire full image itself just scaled down. Anyway it looks a lot more organized than just a blank white page with text on it now. At least there's images and some color. It still looks very basic. I don't know much about design so I don't know how to make it look really nice, but for a simple design, this doesn't look bad.

I'm now going to backup the old site and upload this new version of the website. This one actually has a CSS file linked and images, the other one was made up of just one HTML page, literally.


7:12 PM

Oh yeah. It's now uploaded to the Internet and it doesn't look bad at all. I think the font can be improved. The word spacing of the journal entry can also be improved. Hmm. Then I can probably add some buttons to the header of the website and add a navigation bar. Also I should add some text to the images because they don't make sense on how they're displayed.

Anyway I'm done for now, I'm going to take a break.


11:22 PM

There was a homework assignment due tonight that I just worked on. It involved doing a bit of reading, and man, the language used in college textbooks are so plain and dull. It's so hard and boring to read through. I feel like they're unnecessarily long and can be shortened a good amount. However, college textbooks need to have as much information as possible, so the writers of these textbooks try to add in as much information as possible, even if it seems unnecessary.

Anyway I'm learning quite a bit.

Time Log

12:00 AM – Reviewing Yesterday – 12:06 AM

12:06 AM – Preparing to walk outside – 12:09 AM

12:09 AM – Converting yesterday's entry to html – 12:11 AM

12:11 AM – Fix errors in conversion script – 12:16 AM

12:16 AM – Convert and upload yesterday's entry – 12:21 AM

12:21 AM – Writing Journal – 12:26 AM

12:26 AM – Wasting Time – 12:29 AM

12:29 AM – Writing Journal – 12:35 AM

12:36 AM – Preparing to walk outside – 12:44 AM

12:44 AM – Walking Outside – 2:04 AM

2:04 AM – Break – 5:32 AM

5:32 AM – Sleep -10:42 AM

10:42 AM – Writing Journal – 10:43 AM

10:43 AM – Reading about Web Dev – 11:10 AM

11:10 AM – Looking for Web Dev Tutorials – 12:24 PM

12:24 PM – Install Filezilla – 12:27 PM

12:27 PM – Create FTP account – 12:39 PM

12:39 PM – Get FTP support – 12:42 PM

12:42 PM – Prepare Food – 12:44 PM

12:44 PM – FTP Support Chat – 12:46 PM

12:46 PM – Prepare Food – 12:53 PM

12:53 PM – Eat Food – 1:09 PM

1:09 PM – Prepare Food – 1:14 PM

1:14 PM – Eat Food – 1:29 PM

1:29 PM – Clean up kitchen – 1:35 PM

1:35 PM – Rest – 4:02 PM

4:02 PM – Writing Journal – 4:26 PM

4:26 PM – Nap – 4:31 PM

4:31 PM – Working on Website – 5:35 PM

5:35 PM – Writing Journal – 5:37 PM

5:37 PM – Nap – 5:45 PM

5:45 PM – Working on Website – 6:27 PM

6:27 PM – Writing Journal – 6:31 PM

6:31 PM – Downloading Photos – 6:36 PM

6:36 PM – Working on Website – 6:37 PM

6:37 PM – Brushing and Flossing – 6:40 PM

6:40 PM – Closing Blinds – 6:41 PM

6:41 PM – Wasting Time – 6:47 PM

6:47 PM – Working on Website – 7:05 PM

7:05 PM – Writing Journal – 7:08 PM

7:09 PM – Backup Old Site – 7:10 PM

7:10 PM – Update Website – 7:12 PM

7:12 PM – Writing Journal – 7:14 PM

7:14 PM – Break – 10:20 PM

10:20 PM – Prepare Food – 10:25 PM

10:25 PM – Eat Food – 10:30 PM

10:30 PM – Prepare Food – 10:36 PM

10:36 PM – Eat Food – 10:39 PM

10:39 PM – Wasting Time – 10:54 PM

10:54 PM – Homework – 11:21 PM

11:21 PM – Writing Journal – 11:23 PM

11:23 PM – Break – 11:59 PM

Friday, February 23rd 2018


3:25 AM

I just wasted several hours of time doing pretty much nothing. I've been watching South Park for the past few hours, and have also been reading some articles, and doing some web browsing. Such a waste of time.

I'm going to go walk outside, come back, upload photos to Instagram, and then upload yesterday's journal entry online.


3:43 AM

I went outside and felt the chill of the air on my face, it was cold, damp, and the wind was blowing. I wasn't sure if I could do this. I went downstairs and talked myself into at least walking a block and seeing if I could still make it. I didn't even make it out that far before deciding to turn back, and I went back upstairs. Ahh, I was going back in already? I decided to try again, going back downstairs and trying to brace myself, but again I dejectedly went back. I think I tried again one more time before finally just giving up.

Now that I'm back I have to upload my photos for the day to Instagram and upload yesterday's journal online. I guess I'll have to work out at the gym later today.


4:04 AM

I need to update the journal to html program to have the new div tags I added, and I also need to write test cases so that it's better debugged. I should've started off with it from the beginning but it was just easier to ignore it from the start.

Afterwards I need to write something that will pull down the latest three pictures from my Instagram so that it's easier for me to upload it to the website instead of me having to manually go in and download each one. By the way it's not so easy downloading Instagram images, you can't just right click and download the image. It's either you screenshot and crop it, or you view the background image source, or you use a third-party image downloader. So it takes a while.

I'm going to work on fixing my code now so that it's easier to read and manage, possibly by adding test cases to make sure it works properly. Afterwards I can make sure the div tags and other things are fully operational.


10:04 AM

Nice I worked on this program for almost two hours straight and was able to get a lot done. The result is now perfection. Any entry I write, it will create this HTML output that I can just go ahead and copy and paste into the website and voila, it's there in a very readable format.

I wrote several test cases for it, and I admit that development would have been a lot faster had I not written those test cases, but it's been a long time since I had done anything like that, and I wanted to get back into it. Also it would be very useful in debugging it in the future in case I have to make any changes. It's already in a very easy to read and understand format right now in the way that I wrote it, I'm pretty sure I can come back to this program several months later and wouldn't be confused by it. It sure wasn't like that when I first got started.

It could still use some factoring here and there, but for the most part it's nice and clean now.

What's next is that I need to write another program that can pull and save images from Instagram, mainly just pull in images from my account and save them. Then the images should be auto renamed so that they can be added to the website easily. Right now I have them in this sort of format:

"month-day-year-pic.jpg"

Like this: "2-20-18-selfie.jpg"

Should be pretty easy to pull down the images and rename them in order by the current date. Then afterwards I need to write a script that would automatically create the text like that necessary to be added to the html page. Maybe I should write both of these programs in the same file? I don't know yet.

I'm gonna go out and brush my teeth and floss, then exercise, because I didn't last night.


1:45 PM

Well I don't think I exercised for that long. I just walked over to the gym, then went on the treadmill for a while, walked basically the entire time, I did some curls, and I had a hard time doing pushups but I was able to get two down. Then when I changed clothes from my sweaty shirt to a new one, I was in the bathroom, and I was able to get a good look at myself in the mirror.

I was pretty thin from my chest upwards, and then downwards to my stomach, I was very large. Like my stomach looks bloated. Shit. It doesn't look good at all. I think it's because I eat way too much food. I'm going to have to eat lighter meals so that I don't feel bloated every time I eat.

Anyway I'm going to read some fiction books for a while. I like reading.


9:15 PM

In the last program I worked on to convert my journal entries into a copy/pastable HTML file, I didn't use any classes or OOP to do it. It's really not necessary to do that at times, but I need to relearn this stuff. So I'm going back and retaking an OOP lesson. I didn't even remember how to create objects from a class in Python, I tried using the "new" keyword which I think is only for Java. This is what sucks about knowing multiple programming languages, is that you get caught up by the syntax differences and restraints of each language. Yeah I'm going to take an OOP lesson in Python, but this might not be transferrable to Java or Javascript.

Time Log

12:00 AM – Wasting Time – 3:25 AM

3:25 AM – Writing Journal – 3:26 AM

3:26 AM – Preparing to walk outside – 3:33 AM

3:33 AM – Walking Outside – 3:42 AM

3:43 AM – Writing Journal – 3:47 AM

3:47 AM – Uploading yesterday's photos – 3:52 AM

3:52 AM – Converting yesterday's entry – 4:03 AM

4:03 AM – Upload Yesterday's entry – 4:04 AM

4:04 AM – Writing Journal – 4:06 AM

4:06 AM – Updating journal to html program – 4:24 AM

4:24 AM – Brush Teeth and Floss – 4:28 AM

4: 28 AM – Updating journal to html program – 4:54 AM

4:54 AM – Nap – 7:06 AM

7:06 AM – Prepare Food – 7:11 AM

7:11 AM – Updating journal to html program – 7:40 AM

7:40 AM – Prepare Food – 7:49 AM

7:49 AM – Wasting Time – 8:00 AM

8:00 AM – Updating journal to html program – 8:09 AM

8:09 AM – Check Food – 8:12 AM

8:12 AM – Break – 8:20 AM

8:20 AM – Preparing Food – 8:25 AM

8:25 AM – Eating Food – 8:34 AM

8:34 AM – Preparing Food – 8:39 AM

8:39 AM – Eating Food – 8:58 AM

8:58 AM – Updating journal to html program – 10:43 AM

10:43 AM – Writing Journal – 10:55 AM

10:55 AM – Bathroom – 10:58 AM

10:59 AM – Brush and Floss – 11:04 AM

11:04 AM – Preparing to exercise – 11:05 AM

11:05 AM – Rest – 12:58 PM

12:59 PM – Exercise – 1:45 PM

1:45 PM – Writing Journal – 1:48 PM

1:48 PM – Wasting Time – 2:34 PM

2:34 PM – Reading fiction – 2:54 PM

2:54 PM – Sleep – 8:30 PM

8:30 PM – Wasting Time – 8:50 PM

8:50 PM – Working on image downloading program – 9:14 PM

9:14 PM – Writing Journal – 9:18 PM

9:18 PM – OOP Lesson – 9:25 PM

9:25 PM – Working on image downloading program – 10:00 PM

10:00 PM – Prepare Food – 10:08 PM

10:08 PM – Eat Food – 10:18 PM

10:18 PM – Prepare Food – 10:22 PM

10:22 PM – Eat Food – 10:28 PM

10:28 PM – Prepare Food – 10:31 PM

10:31 PM – Watching Olympics – 10:48 PM

10:48 PM – Reading Fiction – 11:21 PM

11:21 PM – Wasting Time – 11:55 PM

11:55 PM – Taking Photos – 11:59 PM

Saturday, February 23rd 2018


2:28 AM

World of Warcraft came out in 2004 and Warcraft 3 came out in 2002 and no other games have been able to top my gaming experiences on those two games. I don't think any other games will ever come out that will be superior, unless a Warcraft 4 comes out, nothing will beat Warcraft 3. Warcraft 3 was the king of all games, it had every game within that one game. It was my favorite.

In terms of MMORPG, nothing beat World of Warcraft. I've played so many, none of them just felt as open and as free as World of Warcraft did. You could customize everything and you could pretty much do anything in that game. Guild Wars can't even compare. Unlike Guild Wars, the World of Warcraft gameplay style was so classic and timeless than Blizzard nailed it on the first try, they never had to revamp the entire game from scratch, they only had to release additional content to improve it.

Seriously. Every other MMROPG game ever since has been trying to copy and imitate Blizzard's game, but nothing comes close, because World of Warcraft had an entire storyline to back up its playstyle and art style. I have not played World of Warcraft in years.

I also remember RuneScape, that was a classic. I played it back in 2002ish, the very first initial version of Runescape. I remember when Runescape 2 came out, and now it's at Runescape 3, it's such a different game today. I still remember Runscape 1, now that was the best. Party Hats, Scythes, Santa hats, Halloween masks, those were everywhere. I even had a green Halloween mask, now worth a lot of virtual money today, 410 million runescape gold in fact (which is like $80 which isn't that much actually).

Oh I remember I had a level 105 account in Runescape before, some guy traded me it for a $5 Diablo 2 key. I had access to it for about a year before he claimed it back I think using account recovery. I never recalled what happened to it. How did that trade even work? It was in a Warcraft 3 game room lobby where that trade was done, how was that even legit? I could have kept the account had I changed the account recovery email.

Oh, and there were so few items at the time you could know every single item in the game from memory and if you hung around the trading spots, you would eventually run into every single item in the game. Also, it was very common to have completed every single quest in the game, because there were so few quests.

There were just a handful of them, the hardest one being the Dragon Slayer quest, in fact I died there, and I lost all my rune armor, all my weapons, everything. I spawned naked outside the docks, and I remember having felt the worst dread, because I had worked so hard for those items, now I was naked. Not sure what I did, but I was able to recover and eventually get all that stuff back. I realized later that I died because I didn't have the dragon shield with me which would have reduced the effectiveness of the dragon's firebreath by like 90% or something, and it was supposed to be nearly impossible without the shield.

I wish I could go back to those times. Too bad that'll never happen. Today's the good times.


4:34 AM

Well I wrote about Warcraft 3 earlier today, and after looking up the latest news online, a MAJOR, MAJOR update just came out two days ago. For one thing, Warcraft 3 now supports up to 24 players per map. The previous limit was 12 players!!! Now it can support 24 players?!?!? That's unbelievable!!

Another huge change was full widescreen support! Before this if you played in 1920x1080 resolution, it wouldn't really be widescreen, just a zoomed in version of the regular game, now it's natively widescreen and it looks amazing!!! It looks like a very zoomed out graphically improved version of the game, although I don't think any of the graphics were changed.


4:45 AM

Wow there are a lot of new and awesome updates. It's only on the public test realm for now though, so it's not even official yet. I don't want to get back into Warcraft 3 though. I remember my days of Legion TD and the tens of thousands (no exaggeration) of Warcraft 3 maps I played. I must've spent collectively several years of time in that game. I would play for 8 hours a day, 7 days a week, and I would do this for years on end. This was the best game of all time.

I'm reading online though that you can actually play Legion TD in DOTA 2? How does that even work? Just for kicks I'm going to download Dota 2 and try it out. I want to play Legion TD again.

1:52 AM of the next day

I'm writing this the next day because I just woke up. No, that time log is not an exaggeration. I really played Dota 2 for over 12 hours straight, for 15 hours straight (maybe longer) in fact. I don't know when I fell asleep, that time of 8:47 AM is just an estimate.

I feel like a drunkard in AA that just woke up from an entire day's worth of debauchery after being sober for years.

2:02 AM of the next day

Or some heroin addict that just lost his way again and couldn't remember what happened two days ago. Yeah I can really get addicted to video games if I start playing them again. Now just imagine if I just got addicted to being productive instead, what kind of work would I get done?

I uninstalled Dota 2 as soon as I woke up. This game will ruin my life if I let it. It's already ruined my entire Saturday. The entire day.

How was it? It was fun. I played a lot of different Dota 2 arcade games, I started with Legion TD, and I played that for several hours straight. Afterwards I got bored and tried Dota IMBA, and played that for a couple hours straight. Then for the remaining length I played nothing but Dota WTF+ and it was so addictingly fun to play that I just couldn't help myself.

Every game you start over again, so it's like you never played it at all, except for the skills and knowledge you learned from the previous game. It's so addicting.

I truly despise myself for doing it, but what else was there for me to do? It was so hard to stop. I felt like it was the only thing important in my life.

I also ate a ton of junk food, nearly two large (not small) bags of Chex Mix Bold, the ones that are supposed to last a week each. Terrible. Those hours of my life I will never get back.

Time Log

12:00 AM – Wasting Time – 1:05 AM

1:05 AM – Nap – 2:28 AM

2:28 AM – Writing Journal – 2:54 AM

2:54 AM – Looking for food – 2:59 AM

2:59 AM – Reading while eating – 3:12 AM

3:12 AM – Brushing Teeth and Flossing – 3:17 AM

3:17 AM – Wasting Time – 4:22 AM

4:22 AM – Reading Fiction – 4:26 AM

4:26 AM – Wasting Time – 4:34 AM

4:34 AM – Writing Journal – 4:37 AM

4:37 AM – Reading WC3 patch updates – 4:45 AM

4:45 AM – Writing Journal – 4:52 AM

4:52 AM – Wasting Time – 5:07 AM

5:07 AM – Uploading Photos – 5:10 AM

5:10 AM – Garry's Mod – 5:46 AM

5:46 AM – Dota 2 – 8:47 PM

8:47 PM – Fell Asleep – 11:59 PM