All the Time in the World
Tuesday, February 20th 2018
This will be my first journal entry that I upload online to JustMegawatt.com, a website I started nearly 10 years ago when I was 15 years old, as a freshman in high school on February 15th 2009. For around 5 the years that I worked on it, JustMegawatt.com went from 0 visitors a day, to 200 visitors a day, to 2000, to at its peak, over 100,000 visitors a day.
I think the most in one day was over 200,000, but I don't remember the exact numbers and I no longer have access to those old visitor logs. JustMegawatt.com used to be one of the top 100,000 websites on the Internet according to worldwide traffic.
Sometime in 2015, I stopped maintaining and updating this website. I changed webhosts at one point and wanted to delete all the website files and start again from scratch. I ended up deleting all the website files (they're still archived somewhere), but since recreating the site would take more effort, I didn't bother starting the website from scratch again.
JustMegawatt.com became an empty domain. It became just a blank white page and its visitor count dropped to zero, and it was like that for around 3 years until today when I decided to update it again by turning it into my personal journaling and portfolio website. Website traffic competition is a lot tougher these days than it was in 2009, so I'm not sure if I'll be able to get that placement back again, but I sure will try.
For my daily journal entries, it's currently Day 485, that's how many days so far I've been writing this series of daily journal entries. My first series I actually started back in 10th grade during my last few days of being a 15 year old, and I kept it up for a few years until I was a bit over 19 years old. I'm not sure why I ever stopped, but I kept all my writing in a single word document that spanned well over 1000 pages (I think it was single spaced but I don't remember for sure). Actually I just checked, and that old journal was split into two files, and in total spanned 948 pages with a mix of both double and single spacing (it was mainly double spaced).
Then just around a year and a half ago (485 days to be exact) I decided to start a daily journal again, and wrote one daily ever since (although I admit I would skip some days and I would end up going back and writing them). This is the first journal entry I'm uploading to JustMegawatt.com, because the time felt appropriate.
All the time in the world. That's what I have right now. I'm unemployed and don't have a thing to do. I'm a blank slate, I don't know anything, almost literally. I don't have any skills and haven't accomplished or created anything during the past couple of years. Formerly I was a jack of all trades, I knew a little bit about everything; I did web page development both front and back end, I created apps and games, I recorded and edited videos, I wrote articles and stories, pretty much whatever.
Nowadays my skill in these fields are so general they're basically useless in today's society, and I've mainly forgotten everything. This is what happens when you don't use your skills for several years. I barely remember anything about web page development, I no longer know how to make any apps or games and don't remember how (although my apps are still available online in the iOS store), I can still record and edit videos but that's something you never forget, and I can still write articles and stories because I've worked on my writing daily with these journal entries.
I'm 24. I don't know how to draw, I don't remember any math, I don't remember how to program. I've never been in a relationship. I don't have a degree. I have no skills or abilities that will help me in this modern society. I'm also overweight. I'm pretty much broke. I have shitty eyesight. Two of my relatives just died this month, one just less than a week ago and just three days after I last saw him. I have zero visitors to this site.
I'm starting from nothing and with nothing. There's no better way to start a story.
I do have a plan however, and it's this really powerful advantage. I have all the free time in the world. I have no duties or responsibilities, I just have time and I can choose to do anything I want with it. Unfortunately one of my weaknesses and the reason why the old JustMegawatt.com stopped getting updated, the reason why I stopped my first series of journal entries for several years, the reason why I forgot everything including all my skills, and the reason why I basically haven't done shit with my life; is that I procrastinate and I lose interest.
You know what I did the past few days? Nothing. I stayed at home, watched anime, ate food, slept. Wasted my time. I was actually in the Philippines for the past 2 weeks for my grandmother's wake ceremony and funeral, and 4 days ago was my first day back in the States. During the 25+ hours of plane flight home, I imagined myself becoming an extremely productive and hardworking person, reading and studying, and accomplishing so much for the opportunity to live in this first world country. Instead, I did nothing the past 4 days.
The time just went by and I wasted every second. I actually lie down on the floor to use my computer, so literally for the past 4 days I just lied on the floor in front of a screen, watching anime. I wish I were joking. I can never retrieve those 4 days back. I didn't read or study or do anything at all worthwhile. That's how much I procrastinate and that's how skilled I am at it. I used to have a job before my unemployment, and I worked really hard, I wasn't lazy at all, because it was my responsibility to get the work done.
At home though, being the leader of my life, there's no pressure for me to do anything, so I don't do anything. What's the point? Just kidding. Of course now that I've started this journal entry and uploaded it online, I'm forced to do something. This is the journal entry of the adventures of someone who has all the time in the world to do anything. I want to take advantage of this time.
My sleep schedule is a bit messed up so I might take a nap and/or go to sleep right now. Afterwards I'll go read a productivity book to help me get on track.
It's 9:03 PM now, I woke up at around 7 PM, I fell asleep for nearly 12 hours. The past two hours I've been wasting my time.
I'm having dinner now, it's beans and rice with some flaxseed, and a vegan patty for flavoring. Without the patty my meal would be around 25 cents, if I was just having beans and rice. With the patty, it's more like 80 cents. Yeah the patty is expensive and unnecessary, but my dad buys it for himself and he eats it, but I'm having some because it's extra flavor.
I'm going to watch Scott H Young's TedX talk about getting an MIT education for $2000, then read his book after I eat.
I'm going to be keeping a timelog now. From the video, I learned that it helps improves productivity by a lot.
Yeah. This is why I need a timelog. I just spent the past 26 minutes watching YouTube videos. I'll put the timelog at the bottom of this journal entry. I'll do it in this format:
Start Time - Activity - End Time
And there we go, I added the current time, and once I finish this activity, I'll end the time, and write down the next time and what I'm doing next. Okay so I want to learn how to draw, I want to relearn math, and I want to relearn how to manage websites and recreate them. I also want to lose weight. I'm going to take pictures of myself tonight and upload them online here, they'll just be what I look like from today's starting point.
For drawing, I'm going to be reading this book called "Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain" which I'm not sure where it is. I'm going to go looking for it.
Okay I'm back. I was able to find the book and a bunch of drawing material I have, some erasers, and colored pencils, and my drawing notebook. So that's there, organized into one neat pile. There's my drawing out of the way and ready when I want to.
Now I also have web development work to do, and it's been over 36 hours since I last replied, so I'm going to get back to my client now.
I took a break for way too long. I basically talked to my dad for a while, did some web browsing, watched some YouTube videos, and just overall dawdled.
I took photos of my face and my body. I also put up some new pictures onto Instagram. I'm going to be putting up my daily photos on Instagram again, and this website too, just so I can keep track of myself, how I look, etc.
10:07 PM – Writing Journal – 10:10 PM
10:10 PM – Looking for the Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain book – 10:12 PM
10:12 PM – Looking for drawing materials – 10:16 PM
10:16 PM – Writing Journal – 10:18 PM
10:18 PM – Web Development Work for Client – 11:00 PM
11:00 PM – Break – 11:37 PM
11:37 PM – Writing Journal – 11:37 PM
11:37 PM – Wasting Time – 11:41 PM
11:41 PM – Taking Photos – 11:59 PM
11:59 PM – Writing Journal – 11:59 PM